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How have you managed to do a not quite 180 turn on your gender?
so, this is a long one, strap in.
Pre-transition, I felt strongly like a boy, but not a man. I also had really bad bottom dysphoria, and was hating my body hair, libido and other such things that came from a T puberty. I started exploring fem vibes at a similar time, mostly through cosplay, and spent a while as a cringy soft boy egg type.
Skipping over some trauma, I end up taking E, and it makes things a lot better. The things I disliked from puberty were gone. I never really wanted boobs, and remember even telling the doctor that, but embraced the more fem side of things - I was never she/her, but presenting feminine was fun and was a nice way to get distance from the pre-nico me that had existed before.
A while into E, I start feeling boy energy again, and felt like I had enough distance from cis masculinity that I could explore what that means to me in a more nuanced way. I discovered the joy that binding my chest gives me, and started to lean more into my boy feelings, presenting in a queer masc way, and finding lots of joy in it, and the euphoria that girl presentation and identity never gave me.
I still don't like my genitals, and I like what E has done aside from the boobs. I still probably lean fem compared to most cis boys, but very much in a twink/femboy way and not like, a girl way. I still think of myself as non-binary, but leaning boywards. In a weird way, I'm back where I started pre-transition, but with more experience, perspective, and in a body that works better for me.
So... Yeah. MTFTM boy, not a man. genderfuck foxtwink. On E because it treats my body better. It's a bit of a mess, but that is the best I can explain it.
what made you decide to learn toki pona?
idk tbh just vibed with it after finding Jan Misali
which factorio planet do you like the most so far?
I have only been to Gleba so far, but I am liking it a lot more than nauvis, I like that it is forcing me to rethink everything
Bees?
Bees!
I am going to pat you again one day
:3
if you ever are up norf lmk (I will also say if I am coming to Birmingham again, we need another YasFest)
Cargo pants?
cargo pants are the best. comfy, practical, and black ones can be styled in punky and gothy ways.
highly recommended
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